Friday

i'm so bored. i've not slept since y last post and i'm not tired aso. I went to run at 7 in the morning and came home, the fact that i've got nthing to do is killing me ah! so damn bored. atleast tonight won't be like this. 

I'm going swimming with banu at her place, and gonna watch a movie or smthing after tat. Atleast i've got smth to do.Hiazzz. ive got smth bothering me but i'm very shy to type it out here. haha

For those who read this guys don't cheat on ur gf's man, and even when u get married never cheat on ur wife..!!

MACS

 Karthik, Jithen, Pereman and i have brought the roof of the northpoint macs dwn ah. haha we kept disturbing ppl coming in and out calling them names and all. We're not mean ah we were juz doing ppl spotting and things took a turn .haha 

Pereman got to noe this really HOT gal. MONISHA ..... She's in karthik's friendster profile! HOT HOT HOT i tell you!! Smoking hot! i think pereman became hard looking at her pic ah. :D

Than we saw this really thin gals at the mac than pereman had to go call them fat donkey and he said it out loud ah, luckily the gal didn't noe we were referring to them.

We msged kohila karthik's close fren and called her a hairy monster! haha.... She told him to buzz off, and he made things worse by telling her to take a chill pill. 

It's been very long since all of us laughed like this and i really missed it. I've got great frens and i wldn't trade them for anyone! And they made me spend $20 within the half hr we entered macs ah. Lucky i won the soccer bets! 

See even now this HUGE gal entered and jithen juz called her a "hot smoking ka-ni-na" ANd pereman followed rite behind her ah! hahaha. ok this is too much ah.

And do u noe wat we're doing apparently..... WE"RE STUDYING!!!! sutha if u read this dun let him mix with us ah!haha

Can't sleep

I really think i have to see a doctor! It's been quite some time since i slept and i'm freakin tired but i juz can't bring myself to fall asleep.. 

And it's really starting to take a toll on my body. I went to run today and after the first 10 k or so i think i almost died of a heart attack! its the second time this is happeneing!

Now i'm taking it seriously! I'm too young to die man! i love my life too much ah.. i'm gonna stay away from track for a week or so, force myself to bed and see if there's any improvement..

Fingers crossed

One shot

My aunt was admitted in the hospital today. She's previously suffered a mild stroke,  now they have to amputate her toes due to some complications cuz of ther diabetes. I feel so sad for her.

She tok care of me when i was young and i've always been very close to her. It breaks my heart to see her in this situation. Her kids cldn't care less, And i'm furious with them for being the way they are. 

My mum has diabetes too, and if there comes a day when she is in this position i'm not gonna be sitting ard doing nothing and hoping that GOD wld help her. I want to be able to give my mum the best.She's done so much for me and i wldn't be where i am today if not for her. I've decided to go back to sailing as soon as possible. 

I was hesitating all these days cuz of the ppl ard me and the gal i met, But love or liking wateva it is, has to take second place this time. It'll juz have to wait. I want to be able to throw the cash and get wateva it is wrong with my parents fixed. I want to give them a comfortable life. I'm the oldest so i've to set an example for my brother.

I postponed going once for you if you eva do read this, But this time it's different. moreover we don't seem to be going anywhere with this whole thing also. U juz take ur time , but i've also got a list of things to do. If you actually feel the same way i hope u understand. I juz wish you wld for once speak ur mind...Atleast i'd noe, and so wld u.

Anyways it was nice knowing u. Thank you for being there for me when no 1 else was : )

Stupid!

She's a really stupid gal ah! now she thinks i like someone else and she's behaving all different! i feel like shaking her till her brains move or smth! Blady shorty! no brains la u! Everything small butt only big! kuku 

Ok ok sorry i'm ju too stressed out i think. I was talking to preeti today on msn, she' really nice, very jovial person.  And to think tat i took a 16 year old gal to be 20 + tats was so wrong. Sorry Preeti.haha But she's "blur" la u got to give her tat. She says msg me if anything but she dosen't give me her number. Ahha. kuku! got you!

:D i think i'm becoming very mean to ppl u noe, ohh well it's all in the name of fun... Msg me la kuku gal! y you so kuku 1 ah, now ur all must keep ur distance and stuff, i don't like any other gal! tsk tsk. See who's the 1 who dosen't speak their mind . I guess i'll keep writing at least till she finds out tat i have a blog than i'll delete this i think.haha. Have a safe trip puvana, thanks for calling me it was nice to hear ur voice. oh yes and banu!!! i'm coming on friday. i'll keep u posted ok.

Tats all for now, maybe at nite i guess... BYE...

These days...

I'm at the youth park at orchard, doing a event here " Funkamania"

It's damn blady boring ah, dun come here! Ppl dancing for hip hop songs almost all the grps have got the same songs and moves! Than there's one of the event co-ordinator guy here and he keeps pissing me off!

He keeps coming to me and telling me to play the music for the dancers, and than he was like

Asshole: ahh... ok you can play the music
I:i don't think they're ready you noe
Asshole: looks back, than says no no you can play now
I: ahh ok
ok so i press play, than.....
Gal frm dance grp:stupid dj dunno how to tell us before you play ah!!

What the hell!! stupid guy! IDIOT!

haha ok i shan't be so mean. It's been almost a week since i've slept.I'm damn blady tired.I went to work yesterday at 8 in the morning, and after tat went straight to kishore's huz for his b'day party, than headed to go clubbing.

I think i was too stressed or smth cuz i drank 3 bottles at kishore's place than went to club finished a 1 litre bottle of martell and started on another bottle of vodka.

This can'tbe too good for the body can it. And i was msging janani and i think she got angry with me or smth,but she didn't say she was la, i mean she nvr says anything so yea.

I shdn't continue this, I'm wiping out my savings ah.

I had just written almost like a page and when i published it, there was some error msg ah! stupid blogger!!! i really miss some1 terribly at the moment... I'm left feeling this way for the past few mths, i wonder why...hmmm oh well haha hopefully things change for the better. plus i'm kept occupied by running....

I've been doing alot of it lately... Wheneva i can't sleep i run, not hungry run, everything also run... I'm afraid i'm gonna be like those guys on the headline of the papers, "Teen dies of heart attack"! It's a scary thought ah....

If i'm not running i'm probably playing cs and sipping away on my bubble tea, or msging  Janani DOG! hopefully she doesn't noe i have a blog and read this.She'll probably kill me. Oh yea met her juz now, to walk her back...She's a very violent person keeps hitting me! i'm gonna kick her big butt one of these days.

hahaha anyways tats all for now, gtg watch my tv shows...

GOODBYE world : )

Down There...

The o'level results are out today, and many people i know were expecting to see very good results  but most of them didn't perform up to their own expectations i should say. What' done is done guys move on look forward to what to do nxt. And as for puvana i'm proud of you no matter what, u always worked hard and you should be proud of yourself.  I'm really sorry things didn't work out, but i really do hope ur happy. 

                                                              As for the gal i was toking bout in my previous entry, things seem a little lost i guess. She doesn't seem to be interested too. So i guess i'll juz wait and see how things go.

                   Cya : )

Cream colour paint!

it's 5.20 a.m and karthik and i just finishing painting his room! i'm damn tired ah! we started at bout 12 i think and it was back breaking work!i've got paint all over my hair, face, hands and every where else, not in certain places though. haha : D going to mac's now to have breakfast...

bye..... 

Smitten

I'm not sure what this is but, She makes me feel happy, smile at times, feel like strangling her the rest of the time, skip a heartbeat and most importantly "feel special"... i've been feeling all these emotions after 3 months but i'm keeping a distance cuz  like they say one bitten twice shy. She's a very strong person warm at times, but cold as hell the rest...haha we'll see where this leads to..nth anytime soon i think but it would be nice though if it moves up a step like being abit more open

Tats all for now, i'll keep u updated

AFRESH

The first post of this blog, hopefully i'll stick to this blog and not make a new 1. lol Certain aspects of  my life have changed of late, in terms of relationship and stuff but i'm ok i guess, apart frm the recent relapses.... it's scary to think bout going back and all... but shd i?